MOnday…

Hey there. How is everyone? I mean that. How are you? Amen.

It’s funny. Sometimes it seems like we have it all figured out, only to be shown that we don’t.

Let me explain, maybe some of this will take root. Many times in my life, I have searched for what will make me happy. In recent years, that was a specific string quartet. I thought that dream would come true from the start. But, it didn’t. Maybe it will one day, but maybe not. Amen.

But, what does that have to do with my happiness? And why do I think certain things have to be in place for my happiness to occur?

These are good questions. Just recently I was reading about all the blocks we have to our happiness. Off the top of my head, it could be something that happened in the past. Maybe your relationship failed. Or something you don’t want to happen in the future, like losing your job or being homeless. For reasons we are unaware of, my feeling is that these strange things happen out of necessity, to shape your character and mind into right-minded thinking.

For example, some of you know, I made the news in 2017. Amen. I’m ready to talk about it a little. I went to downtown Houston, the judicial district, because I was believing a vision I had in my mind that my older brother was in trouble. It was the type of situation that I thought needed my immediate attention, so I drove there to help him out of the situation.

The whole thing erupted in my face, and ended with me on the news as a mentally ill man in downtown Houston. Kinda funny now, but think about how many people saw that and thought, “Oh, he’s dangerous. Mentally ill people are dangerous.”

Now, I chose to take my time in dealing with this matter. I am no longer mad at anyone or even that it happened. I lost some friends and maybe an entire city, but no permanent harm was done. I can find other places to spend my time, if necessary.

Well, here we go. This is where I bring it back around to what I was mentioning before. If something like this happens to you, what do you do? It was clearly based on a huge misunderstanding, and the results could have caused even more misunderstanding. I was not dangerous, and my thoughts and feelings at the time could have been explained to a “T”.

But, what I’ms saying is, I could have been really distraught over something like this taking place. And yes, I feel for those people who watch the news religiously. But, I know who I am, and what was portrayed wasn’t me at all. Truth, maybe I shouldn’t have followed that vision on that particular day, but everything happens for a reason.

My point is, what do I do about it today? What can I do about it today? My choice to blame no one is clear to me now. Confusion abounded that day. The officers who charged at me, were probably ordered to do so, I’m not sure, but probably. My only concern, is that I wished to harm no one, and was treated unfairly, in my opinion, but, I blame no one. The misunderstanding was clear to me as it was happening.

This incident, eight years ago, shaped my life to a certain extent. I moved out of Houston and I do not go back there unless I have a good reason to do so. That’s sad, but it keeps me safe from people who have been misled. Amen.

However, I look at myself and say, as I have read, that I am one of the higher power’s perfect creation. I am a perfect creation, just as I believe and feel that everyone is. We are love. Amen. I’ve read that.

What does this say about not putting blocks up to our own happiness? Well, some people may have a certain level of depression based on a past occurrence. Emotional trauma might ensue. I was shocked by the entire thing. Maybe I experienced some trauma, too.

But, I refuse to look down on myself after what happened. I’m familiar with mental illness, and I know that on many levels, I have progressed since being diagnosed schizophrenic at nineteen. Even that progress, being able to wake up in the morning and say, “I feel good,” is a direct reflection of right-minded thinking on my part.

And these days, I do right in my journal every morning, “I am feeling healthy.” And I thank the higher power for that. Amen.

So, where does this leave us? All I can say is, you don’t need to live in fear of catastrophic events such as this one. It’s all in how you look at it. I could have handled it differently, but I chose to step away from the whole thing. Does that mean I will never see Houston in the same light? No. But we needed time apart after that. Amen.

I had the strength to pull through and remain healthy and happy, even after such a blow. And for that, I thank right-minded thinking. Staying positive about myself and others. We are all part of creation, can we find it in ourselves to love one another and ourselves.

That said. I’m out.

Haha.

We’ll talk more about right-minded thinking later on. Amen.

Take care,

Travis Galbraith