earthbound…

Hey, how’s it going? Earth. So many possibilities. Amen. Everyone, anyone, able to express him/herself in any way they choose. What else is there. Amen.

I was thinking about what a blessing it is to be here now. I’ve been reading about how we are growing in new directions everyday. Towards what? Hm. Well, to that I say, a better world. And by better, I don’t mean in comparison, just a healthier more aware race. This could be true.

What am I doing to be the best person I can be? Amen. Well, I read healthy books, I try to be healthy on what I consume or intake. But, even then, I make changes according to what I feel will increase my healthy state of mind.

Y’all. I smoke. But, not because it’s a terrible habit, but because I enjoy doing it. There are many, many ways to look at what we do. From one perspective, love is all there is. I feel this would be a wonderful frame of mind to live in. But, I don’t see it that way, which tells me something. I’m not completely awake. That doesn’t mean I I can’t live according to the loving rules of God’s Kingdom, but when will I see that love is all there is? Amen.

God’s Kingdom, I have a feeling I might have lost a few of you there. But, let me explain. To me, after all the reading and studying I have done, I have come to believe that good news is behind every corner. I learned that form my study. This tells me there are two ways of looking at things. One is in light, the other, dark. One is in truth, the other, illusion. But, what is illusion? I have read that it is nothing. So, I go through my day and hear about all that is happening in the world and in my daily life, and I can’t help but feel alone when I block off the things I don’t agree with.

This is so interesting. I feel like I’m having a revelation as I am writing this.

That said, stay tuned.

Many books talk about how much love there is, if we were only aware of it. But what is the condition of the people in this world? The closer we are to unity, the happier we become, it seems. The more we can look on another and say, “brother” or “sister”, the closer to love we become. I have tried it all on my own. I have wondered about how everything is love, but still I fall short of loving my neighbor as myself. What is it? I feel like I have a lot to share and I share it at times in the only way I know how in the given moment, but I still fall short when asked to see everyone as love. Can you relate? Amen.

I’m 43. That tells me I have been on this Earth and gone around the sun 43 times, approximately. That seems like a decent amount, but is it? Anyway, this isn’t about my age. Or yours. It’s about a willingness to perceive and experience love. Amen. Perceive and experience being very closely related in this sense.

When I look out from myself, I want to see love. But I turn on the television and the news shows me everything that has gone wrong in the world. So, it has come to this. What am I seeing? If love is all there is, I must be bearing witness to illusion. But, then again, I saw it on the television. Where is the illusion? I don’t know. Is it in me?

So, I vow to relinquish my judgment of the situation. These things happen in the world we live in. I can only do my part. There isn’t a war going on that I could agree to at this point in my life. I am as an American, transfixed on the solution. Why? Because I grew up believing that America is for the free. Freedom is inherent in us, but what is the war here to accomplish? So, I stay as an American. Free, but vigilant for peace. Amen.

I look at our leaders and am in awe. I’m not saying we don’t have an awareness to achieve, but know that compassion for others is a key to loving unconditionally.

Ah, something else I have heard is that everything that happens in our world is completely neutral. To me, this means I can see a car accident and have no reaction to it whatsoever. Because in reality, based on my current understanding, nothing bad has happened. Does this make sense? It is true, one person may feel something terrible has gone wrong, but here I am, saying that something is wrong with me. I believe nothing God creates is less than perfect. So, when I look at all the things happening today, I start to laugh because I see my own faulty tendencies of thought.

In the vast scheme of things, so I’ve read, there is nothing wrong, it just is. It just is. I have a saying that I love and meditate on from time to time. That saying is, “As it is.” Within that saying are many gifts. I accept that way things are, and I also thank God for his many gifts. But, are we able to see them yet? Not my choice alone.

“As it is”. I accept all people as they are. Some are more aware than I am, and vice versa, perhaps. But we believe in love, or most of us do, or some. Love as the goal is wonderful. But what about love in this moment? Where is it?

Ah, this week I had a few revelations. One, I realized I’m not fully aware of what it is like to return to bliss. I had a night where I couldn’t stop thinking, “What is wrong?” But, I had read that nothing is wrong. So I sat and wondered, what is it that I’m not understanding? But, then it hit me… I was putting understanding in place of happiness. I kept saying to myself, “Well, I’m going to be enlightened someday and then I will be happy.” But I was blocking my own happiness with a use of time. Time was in between my happiness and myself.

This is amazing. How many of us have done that, I wonder. I can only speak from my own perspective. But I do wonder, how many of us think that way. “I will achieve enlightenment one day… and then I will be happy.” Wow, that could be true, but why not be happy now? Is it because you’re waiting on enlightenment? Amen.

I have read recently that happiness is possible in all circumstances. That really gets me thinking. If I want to be happy, why do I always tell myself I must have this, or I must have that experience, or go to this location, or what have you. But, alas I want to be happy no matter the circumstances. Buddha, comes to mind. Not sure why. But, I see his smiling face in my mind, he’s always smiling. Wow. Who knows?

I reflect on many things these days.

Thank you for coming with me through this experience.

Maybe it made sense.

Maybe not.

But, one thing is for certain, I can be happy no matter what, I believe that. I just have to figure out, oops, there I go again.

Haha.

But, what is in between myself and happiness? In the end, nothing.

Amen.

Love,

Travis Galbraith